"...with their flocks and their herds they shall go to seek the Lord but they shall not find Him..."
I can't think of anything more awful that seeking the Lord and not being able to find Him. To have sinned and offended Him so terribly, to have ignored Him for so long that He withdraws from me. Just the thought strikes terror in my heart.
Even at my lowest point, I always know that He is here with me.
One of the reasons I'm going through Hosea is to remind myself of His faithfulness. And He has indeed been faithful to me.
I am trying to rediscover the "early love of my betrothal", when I was so young and untested, and meld that into now, 35 years later. I am older but I still want to "follow You through the wilderness, through a land yet unsown".
I still want to sing "as in the days of my youth."
Show me how, Lord.
I bless You and praise Your name.